Colin and Val – Continuation

Colin and Val
© Vicky Laney
“I remember the cool, fresh softness of the cotton sheets and pillows against my skin as I laid on the bed, every pleasurable sensation seemed magnified ten times in my heightened mood. The thrilling sensation of my silk knickers being removed by a strong pair of hands filled me with eager anticipation. At that moment, my preference was not for a long and drawn out ritual of foreplay. I had a great urgency for strong and vigorous intercourse, as I was already full of tension and fully prepared. After about a minute or two of foreplay, I almost pleaded with Colin to penetrate me. His response seemed somewhat distant; his urgency certainly did not seem to match mine. All of a sudden, to my bewilderment, Colin got up from the bed and wrapped a towel around him. It was self evident that he did not have an erection. “Colin, what’s the matter?” I asked. I really did not understand what was happening. I jumped off the bed and got dressed very quickly. I had suddenly felt very stupid just laying there on the bed naked, not understanding what was happening. “I’m sorry, it’s my fault said Colin”. “I always have this problem”; I thought it might have been okay with you, that’s why I agreed to come. I’ve made a mistake, I’m sorry!” He looked devastated, but I was still confused. The atmosphere was awful. The awkwardness and embarrassment just filled the room. I did not know what to say or how to act, neither did Colin. Everything I had believed, hoped for and planned, had been just a stupid, romantic illusion and I had just been introduced to the stark realities of life in an instant.
This was our first night, how will we see the rest of the week out in this awfully depressing atmosphere? If we went home, that would start a whole raft of questions from everyone wanting to know what happened. What could I say to satisfy people’s natural curiosity? This was a very personal matter and I would naturally want to protect mine and Colin’s privacy. When it hit home just how shaken, depressed and dejected Colin looked, I realized that I was only thinking of the impact on me. How selfish of me. “I’ll put the kettle on,” I said. “Colin come on, let’s talk, I want to understand everything, please talk to me.” We stayed up all night talking over how we both felt, and about Colin’s experiences leading up to tonight.
I could sense that Colin was looking for an exit. I felt panicked by that, I did not want to lose him. I was the happiest I have ever been these past few months, and we weren’t having sex all that time, surely we could work things out? We both agreed to stay at the cottage for the rest of the week and talk things through and to try and enjoy the rest of the holiday. I desperately needed to understand what the problem was and how Colin’s inability to function had caused such a horribly depressing atmosphere to engulf us so. “We need some perspective,” I told Colin, “How many couples do this happen to”? We are certainly not the first couple this has happened to, you are not the only man in the world with this problem, let’s solve it”!
To be continued…

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